are friends you meet on the internet real friends?

nathen kasey buchanan. i've never met him. he lives across the country in texas. but i love him. he is an amazing friend. he always knows what to say and can always make me laugh. honestly if people think that friends you meet on the internet aren't real friends. then i have no friends (okay a little over exaggerated. but i only have a few then..)


yes granted he is 20 something (i do know his actual age. i just don't feel like giving out too much of his personal info) but i'm super close with him. we talk about everything. besides for jeremy and zach nathen is my closest friend. and i really can't lose him. people view our friendship as creepy or unsafe. but there really isn't anything wrong about it.


we talk about our problems. we tell each other jokes. we tall each other little stories from the day. he's never done/said anything slightly creepy. he's never made me feel unsafe. infact he makes me laugh all the time. which is a GREAT feeling. because i rarely laugh these days. 


so is it really that bad that i have friends from the internet? when they seem to help me through more than most people who know me in real life. really? is it that bad?.. 

i cut my hair. :3

uhm so yea here are some pictures of how it looks. <3 

national day of silence.

so today was national day of silence. which is where student in the united states vow silence for one to take a stand against discrimination and bullying against lgbt teens. the silence is supposed to "echo" the silence that gay teens live in because they're are isolated from others because of their sexuality. along with to make a statement. it makes the student s at school think abut all the voice that aren't being heard. and it makes a stand against bullying. i for one am very proud to say that i took part in this act for other second year in a row now. and since the day isn't over i still am taking that vow of silence. 

in my opinion no one should EVER be discriminated because of who they love. i would like to give a shout out to anyone else who participated in the day of silence. it really means alot to since i have many friends who are bi gay and lesbian. we all thanks you and appreciate you taking a stand. <3 

national day of silence. take a stand. make a difference. what will YOU do to end the silence? 
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so my ipod doesn't like to charge.

AND THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS SO THAT IT WILL. on the rare occasions i manage to get my damaged ipod to charge i literally duct tape th charger in place so that it will continue to charge.< 3

why?

you ask me why i'm so addicted to the internet. you think it's silly and childish. you think i need to spend more time with people in real life. you don't understand i can't. i really can't 


on the internet, my blogs, my social networks, my websites, i feel accepted. i feel loved, empowered, like i'm worth something. like i am important and that nothing can hurt me. like i am somebody. where in reality i am nobody. just wasting space. living life undetected. meaning nothing to anyone.. in reality people hurt me. never care about my feelings. walk all over my emotions. in reality nobody cares..


so yes i might spend too much time on the internet. but do you blame me? is it so wrong to want to be accepted? really i'm just addicted love. and the internet is the only place i feel any sort of love. the one place i am accepted. no matter what the people here will care. never judge. never hurt. so when you ask me why i'm addicted to the internet. can't you understand it's always there for me when people in reality fail. 

marching band is a sport.

it annoys me that people think marching band isn't a sport. at my highschool we highstep. and we are on of SEVEN highschools in the nation that highsteps. and unless you yourself are in marching band or have highstepped before you wouldn't realize how much physical activity it actually is. perfectly high knees, in sync with 180 other people, playing music from memory (on beat with everyone else), and doing tricky turns and spins, ALL AT THE SAME TIME! hell yea i think marching band is one hell of sport. especially at my school. 

i'm obsessed with weird piercings.

 vertical industrial.

industrial.

 double tragus.

 side corset.

 dermal punches. (i personally find these disgusting. but i'm still fascinated by them.)

 anti tragus.

  anti brow.

 orbital.

 labret. (i like the spirally ring.)

 tongue piercing. (i adore this picture.)

 dimple. ^.^

smiley.